My eyes are half-way open.
I am exhausted. But so very happy to feel this way.

Yesterday was a different story.
I have been temping at a very nice dental office. A couple days a week. Last week they brought another temp in to help out. Understandable. I am fresh out of school and still unsure of my surroundings. I did a lot of cleaning up after the temp they brought in. I wanted more. I wanted to be in there working with the dentist, the tools. Well, yesterday, I got what I wished for. I was on my own. Just the dentist and I...and the tools. I was a mess. All over the place. Making a lot of stupid mistakes. At the end of the day I was on the verge of tears. I cleaned up as fast as I could and headed out to my car. I cried myself home. I felt like a failure. I didn't understand how I could mess up so bad. I just learned ALL of this in school.

Today was a completely different story.
I woke up at 4am to get ready for work. I got there early and got everything ready. The rest of the staff showed up. First patient comes in. There I am. Just me, the dentist, the tools...and a mouth full of teeth. I am happy to say I was on my game today! Every procedure went smoothly. Today it felt like everything 'clicked' I hope this feeling continues. I know I will still have my 'off' days (specially because I am still a 'new' dental assistant). Hopefully they are few and far between. But today, today I left there with confidence. I am so happy and blessed! Blessed even for the bad days.